Hindsight Always Provides 06/06 Vision. Foresight Is Almost Completely Blind.

風

2011-10-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

With 12 hours left in Singapore, I thought I should write something. Suddenly, I don't feel like leaving Singapore. The feeling of leaving behind my family and friends to go to a foreign land (to do training?!) is not something I like. Then again, this trip to Taiwan is a must, the last of the obstacles that I MUST complete to finally commission as an Officer. Standing at this stage now, I look back at the first day when I entered OCS. After knowing that I got into OCS, I was extremely elated. I savored the prospect of getting that "black bar", but I knew that the 9 month journey would not be an easy one, and I was right. Camo on, FBO, Fire and Movement, Route Marches, Fast Marches, days without sleep, Navigation...every single activity had been a test of my mettle, and I survived. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and how right they are. I felt that I had became stronger in these few months, in mind and body alike.

With three weeks left before we embark on our return journey from Taiwan, I am already looking forward to it. The faces of familiar persons, the warmth of family, and the joy of completing the Ops phase of LOCC...I can't wait!:)

阳

2011-10-22T03:22:00.000-07:00

What a throwback to the days before I enlisted into Army! These past few days, its been tennis, tennis, tennis and more tennis, which equates to fun, fun and more fun:) I realized that even after a long layoff, my tennis is still not bad, which is quite heartening. Being able to stand on the tennis court again with my Prince CTS Approach 90 and hit top spins, slices and serves is my idea of fun:) Of course, Sentosa was really fun too. I had a ball of a time at the Luge, sitting the Skyride and the "Go-kart" down the hill. Its just plain fun. Its these few times that I find myself more fortunate than the Uni kids, being able to play without a care of grades and lecturers.

Then there is the SAF Yacht Club. My god, I have never seen such a beautiful place ever. With a breathtaking view of the sea, plush beds and nice food, I can never ask for a better weekend than this:)

虹

2011-10-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

Today was THE most slack day in LOCC thus far. You thought last week's bookout on Friday was the best? Think again. One week, this week is all it takes to best last week. And so, I am home on a WEDNESDAY night! Tonight, we went to Temasek Club and drank our hearts out. I had a lot of fun tonight, considering this is my first time drinking. My face became really flushed, and had a tinge of purple (no kidding), but nonetheless, there was a lot of fun. I am glad I am an officer:)

However, what I thought was the most important part of today was the Army recruitment talk. Captain Ernest, the presenter was once again his candid self. But he what he shared today was undoubtedly serious and very true. He talked to us about planning early and showed us his supposed life plan until 50. He aimed to get married by 26, which he did, and his first child by 27, which he also managed to achieve. He has a sound (but not necessarily solid in my opinion) plan up till 50 years old. Seeing how his plan played out, I am pretty much determined to fulfill mine. Here's my life plan:

19: Strive hard and commission as a Military Expert Commander at the top of my class; Aim for SMS

20: Study (preferably in UK, either University of Edinburgh or UCL)

23: Get my degree with honours (preferably first class) and begin to kickstart my career

24/25: Get married (if I can find a girl); Buy a house (or stay with my parents)

27/28: Have my first child (and possibly second, if my wife would be willing to); Get a car (a good one)

29: Second child (if not by 28)

38-40: Have my third child (and possibly fourth)

50: Buy my first private property

60: Retire for good and enjoy life with my wife

There it is. Pretty good huh?

Tomorrow is cohesion day in Sentosa. Then again, where else can we go for the cohesion of 74 cadets? No where else I think. AND, I am playing tennis tomorrow! NICE.

霧

2011-10-18T04:39:00.000-07:00

Joy to the world! A double dose of happy news would never fail to brighten my day amidst the heavy rain. The first: I GOT A CONDITIONAL OFFER FOR THE UNIVERSITY OF EDINBURGH!!!! That's the first step. Now, I am keeping my fingers crossed for the true prize: UCL:)

The second? I PASSED MY LOG OPS exam 2!!! I believed that I would not fail the exam, and luckily, my belief pulled through. Thank god for the additional 2 hours of admin time:)

After all the euphoria has passed, you know what I am feeling now? I feel like pulling my hair quite a bit. Ever had the feeling of not knowing what some one else is thinking but wished you do? Yeah, that kind of feeling. I'm about to lose my mind.

雪

2011-10-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

I swear, Facebook has the most interesting images ever. But, this one really got my attention. Is it true? Hmm....

And so I caught a cold today. Those random sneezes can really kill one person. One minute I am perfectly fine, and the next, I am sneezing my head off and my nose becomes an open tap that doesn't know when to close. Now, I feel like drowsy and my body feels hot. Talk about a turn of events huh? Seems a lot like what mother Earth is going through right now. I think its the super hot weather in the morning, coupled by a long long long time in an aircon room at 16 degrees celcius and a lack of sleep. Not a very good combination I must add. Look where it got me.

Apart from the cold, today was pretty good. Visits to many different places can really perk one up. Beats getting stuck in camp anyway. Unless its staying in bunk the whole day. I'll take that any day.

阳

2011-10-16T07:43:00.000-07:00

And so I am back to blogging yet again. My blog never ceases to amaze me no matter how many times I see it. I love the blog skin. It makes me feel so close to the cold mountains and snow that I would not be able to see...for now. Since young, I have always harboured the dream of one day touching snow, building a snowman and engage in snowball fights. I guess its the colour of snow that made me fall in love with it. White has innocence and purity written all over it, and with the world in turmoil right now, peace seems to be so far away.

With that said, I feel happy that this week ends on a Wednesday. I can spend more time with my friends and family before the highly anticipated flight to the end of our Ops Phase of LOCC: Taiwan.

And S, the blog title = my feelings. The many elements that make up the sky seemingly mirror our feelings. Don't you agree?:)

空

2011-06-24T18:47:00.000-07:00

The past week was basically a culture shock. Lessons ending at 1730, no revelle timing, breaks in between lessons...never had I experience all these before, and I must say I quite enjoy this kinda lifestyle:) This 2 months would feel like heaven, and I would most definitely make the best of it.

Looking at how vast the big blue sky is, it embodies the freedom that I am enjoying now. However, freedom without direction is dangerous. Wondering around aimlessly can only get you lost. Once we have lost ourselves to the doldrums, life would then seem to lose its meaning. The very weird fact for me is that I look forward to book out, to see my family, but once I am out, the things that I look forward to seems highly materialistic. From movies that I have missed to games that caught my eye to books that just came out piping hot on the shelves, these enjoyment revolve around S11($). Whether or not it remains sustainable remains to be seen.

Speaking of sustainable, the world seems to be deteriorating everyday, which is really really really really really sad. I want to do my part to help the environment, but as of now, I am powerless to effect significant changes. My question is, why aren't people focusing on saving the environment, but rather on war and conflict or other issues? Isn't the recent earthquakes a strong enough message to mankind that we should stop such childish games and right the wrong? If we had spent the energy on all the other distractions on remedying our mistakes, then I believe we would be able to effect significant changes. Our world would not be in such a dire strait then.

霧

2011-06-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

Can't seem to get rid of this seemingly "sian" feeling I felt since Day 1 of Centipede, and so, after much deliberation, I decided to revive my dear old blog from the ashes like a phoenix. Today was pretty much a day of self reflection as much as a day of entertainment and freedom from restraint. Upon reflecting on myself, I saw the reason for this seemingly "sian" feeling: I had no real significant someone to live my life for. Yes, my parents and sister are definitely people I live my life for, but the significant someone is that of an opposite gender, and someone around my age. You get the idea. Maybe I'm just a little too envious about my bro and tryphena's "cinderella story" that I want to be part of one myself. Yeah, I guess that forms much of the reason. At least they are having fun. As a brother, I'm proud of my bro, and hopefully he and tryphena can really go all the way together:) As for me...well, let's just leave that aside for now.

Tomorrow marks the start of a new chapter in my life. I realised that in my life's storybook, the chapters seem kinda short. 9 weeks in BMT, 9 weeks in SAFTI, 8 weeks in OETI, 16 weeks in SoL, 3 weeks in SAFTI again, this will be pretty much how the rest of my year will play out. I realise how it seems to mirror the kind of books I like to read: short chapters, thrilling all the way. I guess the kinda books you read reflects the person you are. Nevertheless, I am quite thrilled to turn the page and begin reading:) Tmr tmr tmr~~~

虹

2010-12-16T02:36:00.000-08:00

L O V E today:) The day's highlight was watching the movie "Time Traveller: The Girl Who Leapt Through Time", and boy, was i impressed with Riisa Naka's acting:) She is not THAT pretty, but definitely has the girl next door kind of feel, which adds another plus, seeing that many actresses now seem to perfect to be true:) The movie had a pretty sad ending to it, which made me feel pretty sad, cos i was hoping for a perfect ending...:( Great Great Great show nontheless, and i do recommend all other ppl to watch it!:)

霧

2010-12-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

So today i had to coach a bunch(literally) of kids who had not reach primary 3 and thats not enough? Woah woah, and to add to that, for 4 hours? That was what i thought before my stint today at paya lebar kovan cc. I was supposed to play volunteer and coach 28 kids who have not even hit puberty yet from 12-4. While i left with a strained throat (believe me, coaching 28 kids is no mean feat), i left feeling accomplished:) I felt that i had done a good job if not a great one giving the kids a ball of a time, with a programme that i took 10 minutes to come up with:):) Thumbs up to me:) Also, im not sure if its what nard said the day before that got me to realise, but i actually do find joy in teaching other people. Hmm, maybe teaching may be my career of choice after all... The thought of someone learning something new, and seeing the smile on their faces never fails to make me have a sense of achievement:) Though, there are times when kids can get SOOO annoying with their don-wanna-participate attitude and ruin the day for me. I guess, that must be another sign that i do love teaching. I do feel like shouting out now, cos i am kinda happy, both for a job well done today, and for finally finding an area of interest that is fueled by a strong fire of passion. I have a good feeling this fire would not die down for a long time:) Ironically, the kid that posed the greatest trouble for me today was my sister:S I think it was cos of my appearance there that she acted all differently today. I think in school, she would socialise with her friends really well, but when i came, she seemed very happy to see me, too happy in fact, to the point that when i did not pay much attention to her, she started roaming about and sitting in a corner. Weird. I think her "princess-like" attitude came into full swing today LOL, and i think im the cause of it with quite a bit of pampering haha. I cant help it though, shes my little sister, and a very cute one at that:)

When i was sitting at the cc waiting for the kids to arrive, i heard taylor swifts song play in the radio, and once again, i was reminded of what a brilliant singer and a beautiful woman she is. Went home and started to listen to all her songs again:) Love her songs for the meaning they have inside them, unlike many American pop songs that do not carry any meaning at all, like Tonight(hate that song the most).

Great day today ^^

虹

2010-12-12T05:36:00.000-08:00

I suffered from indigestion for the first time in my life yesterday! Apparently, trying to eat all the food in Kiseki Buffet Restaurant is impossible for me:( However, i was close, with only one type of sushi left and soba:)

Tmr's monday, but it feels like its gonna be sunday haha. Then again, weekends and weekdays are pretty much homogenous. Lets just call them "days of the week" until i have to check into army, where they become distinct entities yet again haha.

Arghh, NBA 2K11 is now getting on my nerves. Im playing well well well individually, but we are performing bad bad bad as a team:( I want a win more than i want individual stats!!

Finally, i managed to overcome my '"inertia" and got a Brightsparks account:) The website really opened my eyes, after seeing all the scholarships and such, i have a good grasp of what my choices 3, 4, 5, 6 would be after medicine and law. Going in order, it should be: Teaching-Biology, Health Sciences-Psychology, NParks-Environmental Planning or Horticulture, (maybe veterinary as well). It is very Bio-ish, but it cant be helped, seeing how bio is much more interesting:) Now to go get my internships, hopefully ppl would want to give me a chance, seeing how late it is now...

太陽

2010-12-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty routine day yet again, and i dont have a hangover(unlike those who went prom last night) :) Though, i wouldnt deny that prom sounds mighty fun......ahh, im eating sour grapes again. Boo.

Getting to watch basketball everyday is like a dream:) Games, highlights, plays etc., it is enjoyable~~ :) And with a basketball court near my house, one word: awesome-ness:)

I hope that i wouldnt get sick of it though, cos i won have anything else to do anymore. Hmmm, ok, this settles it, im gonna do something constructive, like finding out my career prospectives and scholarships. Im not going to be passive any longer. Time to leave my forgetable jc life behind and look forward to the future. Im a whole new me. The world is my oyster.

雲

2010-12-05T23:24:00.000-08:00

A lazy day today, courtesy of the cancellation of the outing we planned today. Well, i actually expected that it would turn out like that, seeing that cassandra was the only girl going. I think that 25/09 exists as a divided entity: the yin and the yang. And to make things worse, the guys too, have lives to lead on their own outside the class. Thats the kind of screwed up class i am in. Though, it may be a good thing, cos it allows me to do the things i want, seeing that i like solitude myself.

Yesterday marked the end of 3 consecutive days of high impact sports, and the basketball at the end ended pretty well:) Some guy challenged me to play "game of 21", and i ran off with a 21-0-0 victory, including an impossible shot from half court:):) He challenged me to A-B-C too, and i won with an overwhelming victory as well:) Hehe, take that:D

Now, i do regret a little not being part of prom, seeing that my bro is having quite a great time shopping for prom clothes and prepping for prom tonight:S Ahhh, who cares, its over. Not that the class will make it anymore interesting in prom anyway. Ok, maybe some of the ppl in class might. Emphasis on might.

嵐

2010-12-04T06:46:00.000-08:00

AHHHHH!!!! I am damn pissed today for many many reasons, some of them i know, and some that i cant put a finger to it, but I am still pissed. It started off with me slipping down and injuring my butt due to sporting a slipper with totally no traction, and spoiling my umbrella in the process(thats one). Next, it continued with a me having to tolerate stupid stuck up kids(ok, only 2, but thats all it takes) in coaching today. Whoever heard of a coach having to make the shuttlecocks into rows instead of his students???? Stupid wiseasses. If only it wasnt a business. If only i wasnt working under someone else. If only i could let loose and shout it all out, I would. But i couldnt. It was a business, i was working under someone else, and i cant let loose and shout it all out, thats why the frustration is penting up, making me feel annoyed these days. And what better way to top it off with frustrating plays of virtual basketball on NBA 2k11, complete with tons of turnovers, botched passes and single handedly giving the opposition the game, after helping the team win the previous other games. Damn, this day SUCKS big time:S

I should be feeling accomplished, after all, my badminton skills werent THAT rusty, and i managed to survive a whole training yesterday, 2 sets of singles and three sets of doubles in an unbelievably cold bishan sports hall after running from home to AMK hub that lasted 45 minutes in total. Wow, thats a mouthful, and to add to that lore, i played two sets of doubles after coaching, and i will be playing somemore badminton tmr too, and ending it off with basketball with roy. That would cap off a HARDCORE week. But i am just too pissed and too tired to think of anything else. BOO.

I want to be like a storm, to be able to let loose and cry out loud for once so that this sinking feeling can get out of my chest. ARGHH.

Well, on the bright side, Rapunzel was a great show:) At least it got me buying the "happily ever after" concept again:) Frying pans as weapons instead of knives ftw! HAHAHA

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Crap, a virtual cry didnt help. I need an outlet to scream. zzzz...

空

2010-11-29T07:34:00.000-08:00

Pushed myself a little today, in my run from home to AMK Hub, so much so that i felt light headed after it...but nonetheless happy!:)

Oh, and i bought my NBA 2K11 after giving in to temptation:) Nonetheless, it defied all my expectations and blew my mind off, a truly astonishing game it is:) Now, i'm playing the My Player mode as Wilgene Tan, and i am drafted 35th to the washington wizards, how cool is that?:D Its like me being in the NBA itself!:):)

Crap, im so lazy to start bio mcq....:S:S (Whining...)

雲

2010-11-26T03:34:00.000-08:00

After i ran from home to hougang sports hall today, i took time to glance at the clouds go by as i rest up, and they do seem so carefree, so much so that i felt relaxed after looking at them. Of course, i realise that i could only do that after As, since the burden is now gone. Like a bird trapped in a cage before, restrained by the reality of exams, i now have the freedom to roam the skies, until i fly into another cage: NS. Until then, i'll make the best of freedom;)

陽

2010-11-24T03:57:00.000-08:00

Today's a happy happy day ^^

My exercise regime got off to a brilliant start today(: Played basketball in the morning from 845 to 1015, then changed and walked to rodney's house ( i think abt 2.4km?). That took about 40 minutes? We went there to play mahjong, and we ended up staying there from 1100 to 1900! Then i ended my exercise regime with a run(not jog) back home, and that took about 15minute? Even though it was about 2.4km, it was a terrain loaded with hills and stairs, so it would take longer:D

So that pretty much sums up my day, a very accomplished day for me, to say the least(: The run home from rodney's served as a brilliant warm up before the run to hougang sports hall on friday(:

月

2010-11-23T03:33:00.000-08:00

YAY! HAHA As ARE OVER(unofficially):):):) I am over the moon!!

Now, i am going to:
1) Start my workout ( running, badminton, basketball, tennis )
2) Spend more time with Krystal
3) Watch movies!!
4) Work
5) Play and master NBA 2K9
6) Follow NBA, NLB, ATP:):)
7) Do lotsa crazy stuff ( if i can find ppl to do it with me )
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n) Study for Bio MCQ.

雲

2010-11-21T01:03:00.001-08:00

Dang, my head feels like its floating the whole day, and my throat feels really sore, i think i tore my voice box or something:( This feeling is ABSOLUTELY terrible, cos it feels like im sick, but yet it also feels like i am not, talk about dilemma:S

Just two more days left, before we declare A levels (un)officially over:)

風

2010-11-20T00:52:00.000-08:00

Just like the lazy wind blowing by, today was pretty much just like any lazy saturday...with a twist. Monday is the much awaited(or not so awaited) Bio/Chem double header, and it would do me good if i can break out of my doldrums and start my revision on Bio! Arghh, its so hard to get started right now, the inertia is just too great...

So, Mythbusters started to try bending bullets like Angelina Jolie in Wanted, why am i not surprised. When i saw the preview at the start, it got me pretty excited, but theres no better anticlimax when the myth gets busted haha. From Mythbusters, i got to learn that we cant bend a bullets path, another plus to my (really) general knowledge:)

When i heard that my bro's class is going swimming and cycling, i actually got pretty envious, since my class is pretty much a vivid example of gender segregation:S Just like what rodney said, i dont forsee a near future where the class can get together and have fun again like graduation day. Not a chance. Hence, seeing how much fun my bro's class is, i go pretty green:S A single solace is that at least the badminton team's pretty close, and for that, im happy:) Cant wait for the chalet on jan 4th to 5th:):)

It seems like the next phase of life is going to come real soon, and im not glad at all, seeing how i think that army is unproductive. I dont see how we are "going in as boys, coming out as men" at all. I mean, if it is 1 and a half years of staying with a bunch of guys, i dont mean to boast, but i got a whole 10 years worth of it, hows that? If its training, i got 9 years worth of badminton training that i daresay would be as tough as the army's if not for studying. So what is it? hmmm...

Hopefully the 1 and a half years would breeze by, and uni days come soon(if i can get into one in the first place), cos uni does sound mighty fun!:)

虹

2010-11-19T03:34:00.001-08:00

Ok, so things did turn out quite well today, i'm glad the rainbow did show itself:) So, counting down, there is but 4 more papers left: Bio/Chem, Econs, Bio, and i can't wait for it to be over, the relief would be immense...whew.

So...off to watching Mythbusters again:)

Ciaos~

雨（後編）

2010-11-18T02:22:00.000-08:00

Well, i found this online, or should i say, my brother found it online and showed it to me. I found that it pretty sums up what kinda person i am. i am actually quite surprised at the accuracy of the Kiersey Temperament Sorter:) Taking the test on Facebook, i got Idealist Counsellor, an INFJ:)

What's It Like To Be A Feeling Man?

You feel most "different" in times of conflict.
Men got into their roles because of their bodies. In primitive times, if you had superior size and strength and weren't tending the children, it was natural that you went out and hunted animals for food and fought off the enemy. In other words, you did the fighting and the killing. Today, men are still expected to hunt, although now it's more for money and power. And they're still expected to fight and kill, even if it's just the competition.

But when it comes to hurting people or taking money and power from them, F men don't feel cut out for the job. All of the F men interviewed for this issue said it's their unwillingness to hurt people that separate them most from other males. They first noticed it when they were boys, when they were called upon to be physically aggressive.

"I found playground fights to be very distasteful" says David, INFJ, "and it was traumatic when I got into a fight." "I avoided fights," says David, ESFP, "I just wouldn't rise to the bait and I'd walk away. It didn't bother me to be called 'chicken.'"

Did the Feeling boys try to stop the fights they saw? Not usually. Fs in situations of conflict tend to freeze up. They are often so shocked by what is happening that they can't react. Also, they don't want to do anything to get the conflict directed toward them. When F boys were able to stop their friends from hurting people, it was because they were able to give them a good reason not to do so. But Feeling boys do get into fights. Usually it's because their feelings have been badly hurt, or they've seen someone else being hurt. In other words, their fighting is more defensive than offensive.

F boys become F men but they never lose their distaste for conflict. At the same time, they never lose their desire to defend the underdog, so they find themselves in conflict much more than they'd like. It's their lifelong quest to find ways to successfully "fight" for what they believe in, when they don't believe in fighting.

You learn to hide your feelings around boys.
F men said they got into trouble for expressing their feelings around boys, and being Fs, they wanted to be accepted, so they chose, at very young ages, to hide those feelings. "In friendships with boys, I often did not express my feelings," says Dan, ENFP. "I got along because I knew how to get along."

Acceptance is important to Fs, and sometimes that means doing what others are doing when your heart is not really in it. "I kept it a secret that I was sensitive," says Christopher, ISFJ.

Although F boys may not be admired by other boys for their Feeling talk, they can be admired by boys for their Feeling ways. "I was a leader among the boys because my F extended to them," says Roger, ISFJ. "I was accommodating, agreeable, and easy to get along with."

But you learn you can take your feelings to girls and women.
Feeling boys learn they can't talk like an F in the company of most other boys, but they also learn that they can open up with most females. It begins with their mothers. "I was always close to my mother. We related well and could talk about things," says Tom, ENFJ.

F boys soon realize that when they're in the company of girls or women, the conversation often sounds interesting and pleasant to them. However, being around girls and women is accepted only in small doses when you're a young boy. "I had no problem with girls, I understood them," says Bob, ESFJ. "But I knew that boys weren't supposed to have girls as friends, so I didn't hang around them too much."

Later on, in adolescence, Feeling boys become more conscious of their Feeling side, and really want to share it with someone. And once they're teenagers, it's OK to be around girls. And, it seems that from adolescence on, Feeling men have more female friends than male friends.

One of the pleasant surprises in life for Feeling men is that, because it's unusual for a man to care about feelings, to be romantic, tender-hearted and thoughtful, it carries more weight than it does for Feeling women.

Your F can make you a great family man.
Fs derive the bulk of their self-esteem from their relationships, and their most important relationships are usually with their families. So as much as they may love their careers, they'll still need more time with their families than most Ts do.

"I wouldn't consider taking a job that didn't allow me to be with my family," says Tom, ENFJ. "They need my presence more than wealth." "My home and my family are central to me, much more than my work," says David, ESFP. I'm motivated to work only to provide for my family."

And even when they're on the job, F men can make their work atmosphere feel like a family. "I lead by getting to know my soldiers inside and out," says John, ESFJ.

But your F can get in the way of being a good provider.
F men lack the "killer instinct" and they find out that it's hard to make a lot of money without it. If they work in professions dominated by Fs, they're usually underpaid because Fs, unless they are well disciplined, are not motivated to put high financial value on their work, to strategize ways to best the competition, to put the needs of the business over the needs of the people, or to make decisions based on objective data, like the bottom line.

"Usually, when people go to negotiate agreements, they think, 'What's the least I can concede?' says Tom, INFP. "I'm thinking, 'What's the most generous I can be?'" If they go into a T environment, they may be able to get by, but it's unlikely they'll earn high-income positions. Like all Fs, they struggle to find careers that are in line with their values, and that usually means less and less money.

Tom probably speaks for most F men when he sums up his attitude about money and power, and his ability as a provider: "It's not easy to make money when the kinds of things you want to spend time on are not rewarded financially. I think I'll always be able to provide the basics for my family. I know what I need to do to be comfortable, but I don't think I'll ever be in a position of power because people in power have to make choices which I wouldn't make."

So no matter what career you choose, you learn that you need some T skills.
"I work in the federal government - a very T environment," says Dexter, INFJ, "so I've had to build up my T muscle. I've learned that Ts take your words more seriously. They analyze what you say, word by word, and dissect it to an accurate state, so I've had to be careful about my imprecise and insufficiently analytical speech. I've learned that I can't work on something till it feels right to me, and then take it into my boss. He's just not interested in what I feel; he can't even get started on it. I have to have collected the facts to support it. I check around a lot, and call different offices. I analyze things through, ask myself what I'm missing, anticipate other people's criticisms, and get all the possible objections."

"I've noticed that on matters of judging and disciplining people, which we have to do in the military, the Ts try to make rules where everyone is treated the same," says John, ESFJ. "The Fs, on the other hand, don't think that any two cases are exactly alike, and look at all the extenuating circumstances in the person's life. I've learned that you have to find a happy medium between the two. I've developed a sixth sense about what decision I can make, and still function in both worlds."

Besides developing T skills to survive in a T-dominated world, some men are finding that it's also useful to make Ts aware that Feeling input is essential to successful decision-making.

"I used to go into my managers and explain a solution to a problem and they'd say, 'Where are your facts?'" says Bill, INFP. "I'd say, 'I don't need facts, trust me, I know I'm right.' Well, they never did, of course. Last year we were all given training in the MBTI® and since then they've begun coming to me and asking me for advice. I've become the link between management and employees. I've gone from being a 'bad fit' to a real asset to the company."
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If you don't mind reading more, here is a dissection of what INFJ is (it is VERY LONG):
visit the website:)

http://keirsey.com/4temps/counsellor.asp

雨（前編）

2010-11-17T23:03:00.000-08:00

Disclaimer: The blog title does not suggest that i'm sad, its just that it is(or was) raining, so its just in a literal sense:)

Suddenly, i find that i'm hooked onto documentaries-kinda shows from Animal Planet and Discovery channel, just like how those GIANT RIVER MONSTERS were hooked onto Jeremy Wade's fishing rod:) Even though my cable tv does not have any of the above channels, i have the trusty(or not so trusty MIO) internet, or specifically, youtube:) They are equally as informative as entertaining, 'specially Mythbusters:):) I've seen many episodes of Mythbusters, but each of them never cease to amaze me.

So, i managed to find something to do on the internet when i'm bored of studying, yay:)

I find my sister really cute, haha, she always comes up with those amazingly surprising comments out of nowhere, be it to my mom or to either me or nard:) Just a few days ago, she came up to me and told me not to marry cos she did not want me to leave the house, and it got me reeling in laughter. Of course i want to get married haha, but i definitely wont leave the house, nor my parents and little Krystal behind. Contrary to nard's beliefs, i do find that living with the family is essential. I do like the thought of 3 generations living in one roof of a HUGE bungalow haha, now, wouldnt that be amazing?

And just yesterday, she went up to my mom when my mom was sleeping and whispered: "you had 2 boys already right? that is why you born me out right?" Ok, the English isnt spectacular, and im not sure if i got the exact sentence right, but the gist is there, and once again, her random comments really crack me up:D

Just as the rain clears up and the sun returns from its enclave behind the clouds, i hope tomorrows econs would be like the rainbow after a storm called Chemistry:)

雪（後編）

2010-11-17T06:46:00.000-08:00

I thought i should post the guy version of the post earlier:)

I Can't Understand A Man.
If you smile at him, he thinks you're a flirt,
If you don't, he thinks you're an iceberg;
If you respond to his love in just a shortwhile,
he thinks you're an easy to get;
If it takes you years to decide,
he proclaims you're an old fashioned;
If you bring a chaperon along,
he thinks you're a playgirl;
If you don't, he thinks nobody is interested to you;
If you let him kiss you, he wishes you're reserved,
If you don't, he'll seek consolation elsewhere;
If you'll ask him his whereabouts,
he proclaims you don't trust him;
If you don't, he says, you don't care about him;
If you follow his wishes and likes,
he dominates you;
If you don't, he says,
you don't give a damn about him;
If you're jealous,
he proclaims you don't have faith in him;
If you don't, he doubts you're LOVE:)

I guess good things come in pairs:)

雪（前編）

2010-11-16T17:33:00.000-08:00

I think i'm catching a cold for god knows what reason, been sneezing all morning:( I do hope it would stop, as well as the headaches that come with it...ouch.

I was surfing the net today and found this!(Pretty interesting!)

A girl is special created by God.
If you praise her, she thinks you're lying,
If you don't, you're good for nothing;
If she talks, she wants you to listen,
If you listen, she wants you to talk;
If you kiss her, you're not a gentleman,
If you don't, you're not a man;
If you agree to all her likes, you are a wimp,
If you don't, you're not understanding;
So simple yet so complex,
So weird yet so beautiful.
That's a Girl, a non-understandable creature but definitely makes a guy complete:)

I guess, to a certain extent, that is true haha.

I thought that when one sms-es another, isnt it common courtesy to reply back? Did i do something wrong? hmm...

Ah well, forget it, my head's pounding too hard for me to think of these kinda stuff:S

雷

2010-11-16T02:31:00.000-08:00

Well, so the day didnt turn out so pretty after all, and neither did the Chem Paper 2:S After doing quite a few papers, i thought that i had seen it all...apparently i havent, and boy, were the teachers right when the said that the papers were getting tougher every year, ok, maybe not tougher, but surely weirder. Now, i am not sure if i could get an A for Chem, the subject that i so vividly remember was my forte in secondary school. Man, how times change as well...

Having a 4.5 hour lecture on Bio Paper 3 didnt help improve things much cos it was really really tiring!!:( Ah wells, i hope the Bio wont turn out like Chem...

Oh, and theres Econs too!

Gosh...As...

陽

2010-11-15T02:13:00.000-08:00

The sun peeking through the clouds, the gentle breeze blowing amidst a slight drizzle, now this is the makings of a beautiful day:) Thanks to the great weather, doing Chem Paper 2 practices suddenly felt pretty enjoyable:) Yay, i did a total of 4 papers today, bringing the grand total of papers i did to 7!(Congrats me)

Staying at home alone is great, i finally see serene's point of view. I wanted to wish for more alone time to do work, but then i realised that As are ending(fortunately, unfortunately haha).

Great to see the LA Lakers falter again, it pleases me no end, great job Phoenix!:) This year's NBA champions should rightfully go to the Boston Celtics, they deserve it:) Oh, and the Spurs are HOT. 7 wins in a row? WOW. If the Boston Celtics dont win, I wouldnt mind if it goes to San Antonio:)

I am happy today, just like the Sun:)

Hopefully tomorrow's Chem Paper 2 would go well, and the day would stay as picturesque as today ^^

Renaissance.

2010-11-14T05:18:00.000-08:00

Just like the Renaissance period was a period of appreciation for the Arts, i just found an appreciation for my blog again:) Well, thats what happens if you don't have much people to talk to i guess. I came to realise again that my blog is the only way to let off steam.

I have nothing to do on the internet now!! Ahhhh, i guess this is the prelude to the ultimate boredom after As. I want to do loads of things, to add colour into my super dull life now, but...i am tired, real tired, i just wanna be alone. Maybe i belong to the period of black and white, to the era of solitude.

As the storm passes, mist-ery sets in. Shhhhh... 霧 Hopefully i can see the sun again:)

My ray of light, Krystal ^^

Pick me up

2010-02-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

Today was really really tiring!!!! AHHH, went to lecture number 1 of the day: Chem, and i was prepared to doze off. Luckily mr goh was really interesting, so he kept my attention there. But after chem, i zoomed off to nexus after eating and snoozed for half an hour...zzzzzzz

everything else after the break became a blur, all i know was that i was either complaining to rodney how painful my whole body was from yesterday's NIGHTMARE!!!

had to stay back and do all the project eureka stuff too...i am really wiped out right now!!):

i need to sleep early, i need to sleep early, i need to sleep early. then why am spending time typing on my blog??? i know, its cos i am running out of time to even type on my blog in the first place, so i guess this post is gonna last for a while...b4 i come up with another...

And reality comes crashing down...

2010-02-04T04:06:00.000-08:00

Sad Sad Sad that orientation is over. I HAD A BALL OF A TIME! OG 38 totally owns the others! However, all good things must come to an end, their time tgt as an OG would also be shortlived): Thinking back last year, i am greatful that our orientation was much longer than theirs and most of us stayed tgt as a class even after orientation. Gosh, it feels like orientation all over again...hahaha, thinking back at both orientations 2009 and 2010, emotions are pulsating through me, and i cant help but let out a tear. It was a moment of ecstasy where you get all high and happy, for that few days, and when the effects are gone, you sink back to a normal life again.

Kay, i think i finally remembered all their names after these few days...

Chen Hao- China dude, who opened up to me(thankfully) on the second day, being able to make him open up to the og makes me feel accomplished(:

Yew Loong- Cat high guy. He was pretty much on the quiet side, but still participates actively on the activities, so i guess hes pretty awesome too(:

Sean- VS!! Feels superb to have a junior in my OG. We click loads well, and that sorta starts the ball rolling for others to open up too!(: Though, i laugh at the sight of him laughing at the sight of hilmi! HAHAHAHAHA. I really really hope sean and hilmi are in the same class man! ^^

Alym- VS!! On the second day, we got yet another VS member in my OG. WOW talk about luck(: I thought that i would have trouble talking to alym at the start, but well, i guess VS frequency transcends all! Super hyped up too! YEAH, VS unite we show our might...(:

Daniel- imba only person taking BCME all H2 in OG 38...somehow he reminds me loads of Alvin, and i dont know why!!! HAHAHA. He had the Alvin-vibe. Good good, i hope he will ace the cohort. Go man go!

Kai Yuan- Super high guy! He looks pretty much like a potential lady's guy too, thats a good thing, like me :P

Hilmi- EPIC dude. ♥ his jokes man, the way he tells it with a poker face and just makes sean laugh like mad. HAHAHA, total epic. I take my hats off him(:

Clarence- Another imba. He sounds super like donovan, like an uncle, only that he doesnt hit me like donovan does hahahhaha(:

Hong Da- Quiet sia

Veronica
Si Ying
Joanna
Wei Yin
Kai Xin
Hui Xin
Nauar
Wendy
Deng Yun
Regina
Mandy
Xin Lu

There...all of them here(:

Kay, i am lazy to continue...:P ♥ all people in og 38!(:

I am gonna miss ALL of them, they are soooo hyper and N2, i will miss and treasure all that they did for us...(: love the card they made for us too, it was so touching, wonder who did the drawing. Hmmm...3 guesses...

But i have one complaint: WHY MAJORITY OF THEM TAKE PCME??? Its so...so...pissing(pardon the pun haha). Bio is the new age man...physics is the thing of the past, trapped in the time of galileo, bohr, einstein, rutherford...haha oh well, i respect their decision, so good luck guys(and gals)!!(:

Funny man, the girls in AJ are pretty vertically challenged this year but the guys are shooting sky high (JEALOUS~~)

okay, back to work for me...):

O R I E N T A T I O N 2010!(:

2010-01-29T07:32:00.000-08:00

Orientation starts! Cilento(OG38) seems absolutely amazing! I need to try and remember the names of the OGMs (having a hard time remembering them!).

Kay, lets see:
-Kai Yuan
-Clarence
-Sean
-Daniel
-Chen Hao
-Yew Long
-Hilmi
-Hong Da

are the guys that i remember...

-Si Ying
-Joanna
-Deng Yun
-Xin Lu
-Wendy
-Kai Xin
-Veronica
-Mandy

are the girls i remember...

Okay...not bad, more than half...but not all. hahaha, no worries, i will remember them np, ive got the memory of an elephant!(:

I look forward to movy fest this year! Percy Jackson~~~(:

Time to go into overdrive monday! Woohoo! The battle between the Sky and the Earth rages on! All the rest of the alliance can go fly kite and siam!(:

Now i wonder why i did not take physics

2010-01-24T06:07:00.000-08:00

I just saw a documentary called science odyssey: mysteries of the universe, and it was so awe-inspiring, so mind-boggling, so simply-complex, that I wonder why i did not take physics.

Math seems to be the language of the universe, since almost everything could be represented in equations, or so physicists speak. Ever heard of the uncertainty principle? It goes like this:

The more you want to know the speed of an object, the more you will deviate from being able to know the distance it travelled, and its exact location.

Cool huh?

Saw a very shocking news today too: Jerry Yan (the guy who acted as Dong Fang Xiang in Hotshot) actually proposing to Ella of S.H.E?! Absolutely unbelievable!! Hebe and Selina are MUCH better looking. LOADS.

People have weird tastes.Wait a minute, who am i to comment?

I have loads of things still undone.

Behind time

2010-01-22T06:34:00.000-08:00

Man, I have a pile of things i need to do!!

-Marketing proposal
-Functions tutorial
-Mclaurin series test
-Bio test
-Bio tutorial
-Stanford book prize competition

CRAP

Negative

2010-01-19T06:15:00.001-08:00

Suddenly, i feel so so so so negative. I feel like its impossible for me to do well for my exams no matter how hard i tried. I realised i do not understand plant cloning at all, i feel like i dont understand alcohols at all, i feel like i may not even understand anything at all.......

I really feel like sleeping, but i cant go to sleep, for today is one of the few days where i do not have training, so work must be done today, but i cant, i just feel like i cant, i feel sad, emotional, frustrated, empty, like all the pent up feelings get blown out now, prob cos i didnt get enough sleep.

I dont enjoy remedials, especially since its on tuesday, and at 445pm too. By that time today, i was sprawling on the Nexus sofa, trying to catch 40 winks and catch up on sleep which i missed cos i slept at 12 plus yesterday. I feel like not going, but then, i know its beneficial, and i will have a nagging feeling in me...AHHHHHHHHHHHH, confusion, despair, possible sorrow etc. etc.

I blogged, but i still dont feel better. This sucks....

Crap Crap.

"Singapore Can Speak"

2010-01-16T08:08:00.000-08:00

Amazingly, the title of this post is actually a competition to be held in the near future, a very near future in fact. It is to be held in May, where publicity starts around april. How do i know? Cos i heard from my bro! He is part of the organising committee from RIJC, and the organisers, Take The Stage Now, wants the participation of all JCs, including AJ. However, non from AJ volunteered yet, so I decided to volunteer in spearheading this. The competition is judged kinda like singapore idol, but instead of singing, contestants will be speaking, and the public will vote for them. Interesting huh? I find it extremely so, especially, it will be like Singapore idol, being broadcasted nationwide!!! I would want to be part of this, the idea of being part of a SUPER LARGE SCALE event invigorates, exhilarates and overwhelmes me! Though, i need to form a grp of 5 people, including me, to be part of the representatives from AJ. I really really hope that some people will want...it is really really interesting(:

I am tiredddddd....so so tired... -.- 'zzzzzzzzz...

First week of school OVER

2010-01-15T06:39:00.000-08:00

Though it felt like a whole month had past. This week seemed VERY very long, but it was still a week. This is pretty much worrying too...cos its only the first week, but i am aching all over, and am super exhausted, super hungry. How am i gonna survive the next few months????

Looking back, this week was really exciting! We came back after a long(short) break and got in touch with friends yet again. God, 25/09 is DA BEST. There are tons of funny antics around everyday! If 24/09 is a soap opera, 25/09 is a comedy show!(:

Sure-stay comedians:
-Vikniash the stand up comedian
-Travis and hannah slapstick comedy
-Donovan, Gabriel and Wei Jie Trio comedy
-Justin, CY *** talk (not much of a comedy, but yeah, still highly entertaining to take a peek into their rich and fertile imagination about females)
-Cleon's random comments

I exercise almost everyday, except tuesday. Theres badminton mon, wed, fri, sat, sun; PE mon, thurs, so i am left with the lone tuesday to rest...HOW????

Ahhh, feels better to rant it all out. I think i'll manage somehow, whilst boosting my grades.

--Ranting over--

Nights~

Too/Two eventful day(s)

2010-01-13T07:56:00.001-08:00

Eventful day number 1: Today!

Came to school in the morn lugging my HUGE badminton bag. I decided to try my luck and stuff it in the badminton cupboard. To my surprise, it could! Then, i realised i forgot to bring my tie, so i was stuck without a tie when the whole school (seemingly so) had one on. Oh wells, school just started. There should be some give and take somewhere(: And cos today had open house, lessons ended at 1045 today, so i was literally carrying just my pencil case, my folder and foolscap paper around! Ohhh, it feels so so american(: Rock on, American POP culture! I embrace it~(:

Open house was pretty boring for the badminton booth, though quite a bit of ppl played on the court we were assigned to, so i was kinda glad(: The hall was like THE place to be for the open house, cos all the performances were there, and it was airconditioned!!! However, each of the performing arts performed 3 carbon copies of a performance, so it got boring after a while. Ironically, i missed the dance performance, all 3 times!! Their dance was kinda cool, after seeing them practice in the hall while we were having badminton training, so it was a waste to miss it, myself included.

The cause for missing it? Roam around the school, looked at photos of our J1 memories at Nexus, take part in the dances at AJ square, played squash (:, played TOP SPIN 3 on WII!!(:, and chilled at the table tennis booth at 1311 with cleon and the sick-in-the-head darryl from class 14. AHHH, looking back, it was kinda fun after all(:

Eventful day 2: TMR!

Tmr have photoshoot at 130, so i will be missing quite a bit of malay, not that i had much interest in malay after all. Then, at 445, we are gonna meet to choreograph a dance for finale!! GO TERRA GO GO! its gonna be an exciting day ahead!

DAMN TIRED ALRDY, training after open house is KILLER. My calf muscles hurt, my sole hurts (gonna take serene's advice on how to cure it, thanks!(: ), my shoulders ache, my back aches...and theres pe tmr -.- i might as well surrender.

NIGHTS~

Back...AGAIN!

2010-01-12T05:49:00.000-08:00

Finally, i have time to blog again!(:

It was a busy week gone, and a busy week ahead.

The things ahead:
-Been called upon to "model" for the school yearbook hahahaha. Maybe i will consider a career in modelling ;P (thursday)

-Open house!!! Damn sad, we only got one court for our booth out of the six badminton courts in the hall...): Oh wells, at least we know we put in effort into making our booth look great, cos we stayed behind today to do up the posters(: And on the side note, i feel that there is absolutely no need for us to advertise badminton, as it is one of the most popular sport in singapore, to the extent that no advertising is needed. I guarantee our trials when cca carnival kicks off will have lines of ppl q-ing up haha. (wednesday, tmr!)

-Training! Badminton is unquestionably one of my most most favourite! Thinking back, when i was in primary school, where i did not want to join badminton at all, and was forced to go for the trials. Lucky i got in, and my passion for badminton ignited into a blazing flame thru these years. True, it died down for a while in secondary school, but its back and larger than ever before. True, i am into other sports too, like tennis, basketball, squash, inline skating etc., who says i cant have more than one passions?(:

HOWEVER, i think i injured myself, my sole feels really pain right now, and i have difficulty walking. Maybe i pushed myself a little too much. OUCH):

Gonna konk out soon. My eyelids are heavy, my eyes are dry, my brain is switching off. I think its time for me to sleep/snooze/catch forty winks/rest.

Ciaos~

Back....temporarily

2010-01-04T05:07:00.000-08:00

I am back to blogging! However, because i forsee an extremely hectic week ahead of hmwk, ogl workshops, badminton training etc etc, it would be quite a while before i blog again): Oh wells, this year is crunch time, gotta buck up, been really slack last year.

Just finished day 1 of ogl workshop, and i am exhausted, but nonetheless kinda satisfied(: I realised the people in Terra Alliance are all REALLY GREAT. Superb enthusiasm, think that this year Puma House would at least win in some category for games. Thinking back at our own orientation last year, Scorpius Alliance was losing every single game. Lucky we won the Inter-house Drama Competition hahaha. Our only consolation.

Homework count:
Tutorials left!!! Almost there...come on!

Damn, i think my submission to the Tan Kah Kee Young Inventor's Award got disqualified. I registered for it on the last day: 31/12/09, and i thought that i handed in the Project Details File too on the day, but it turned out i did not, and i read the email sent on 31/12/09 for the notification on 1/1/10!! Argh....i am hoping i did not get disqualified...i spent a few weeks on my idea!!!):

We havent got started on the Chem Research Project yet too, though all we need is to carry out the experiment, we got all the details down alrdy, cos we met on thursday and discussed. I remembered i had loads of fun on that day haha, i brought the diapers which were vital to the experiment, and TJ and Daryl started saying that they were my underwear -.- haha. Then, we went on to "dissect" my "underwear" and found some really cool stuff. The absorbant layer is actually composed of sodium acrylate crystals which form hydrogel when it absorbs water. Cool huh? (:

Tmr is another tiring day again, but i hope it would be more fun than today!(:

ill....

2009-12-21T06:15:00.001-08:00

Sore throat, body aches...crap):

Christmas week gonna begin tmr!

2009-12-20T06:40:00.000-08:00

My mom just spent 80 dollars worth of takashimaya vouchers on gifts for my cousins and sister!!!

God, this is one of the few times i wish i was a kid again...

Wilgene's plan for rollerblading (in the near future):
-Buy a pair of skates.
-Rollerblade
-Watch NHL
-Support an NHL team
-Learn inline hockey!(:

Christmas is next week! I hope christmas eve's celebrations will be fun this year...

My want-to-do(s) for christmas:
-Watch alvin and the chipmunks 2!
-Watch Sherlock Holmes!
-Do homework....... -.-

"Friendship is having one soul in two bodies" ;)

Monster sleeper, monster eater.

2009-12-19T06:47:00.000-08:00

Slept from 930 to 1130 today, then from 4 to 7 again. Ate biscuits, 2 packets of mixed veg rice, cheese and egg bread and one packet of instant noodles for dinner.

I am gonna grow so fat.

Chalet's Over......

2009-12-18T05:38:00.000-08:00

I am 100% singaporean!!! I am not malaysian, indonesian or china-chinese!!!

Class chalet was fun, but now i am really tired, i think i am gonna sleep for a very very long time...

R'Blading rocks!

The second century post!

2009-12-14T05:15:00.000-08:00

Yeah, its post number 200 now! This calls for a celebration!(:

Woke up real early to go to school for project eureka today, and was it fun! We were scratching Sindora Seeds at the beginning, and boy was their seed coat hard! I got my first blister after finishing my 30 seeds, and my second after helping zt and jia he do theirs. It was a small price to pay fro being able to play a very interesting game of badminton with jia he at the track. WE PLAYED BADMINTON WHILE RUNNING AROUND THE TRACK!! 400m worth, cool huh?

Then we went to amk nursery to do buy volcanic soil, and i didnt realise a nursery would be so cool! It was bustling with greenery and was a sight to behold. After heading back to school, we filled up the cups we bought with the soil and dumped the seeds in, before having lunch in the cooling-as-compared-to-the-afternoon-sun-but-still-hot-and-stuffy room 415 of the container block. Caught a caterpillar along the way and had my fun with it watching it squirm around.

Training was fun too, seeing all the seniors from past years come back to play.

Today was really really really fun(:

Sun Tzu Art of War

2009-12-13T06:43:00.000-08:00

First thing that came to my mind here was "emo-ly tired". Don't know how i thought of this word, but i just thought of it. Probably cos i had a frustrating day, and i am exhausted. I need to let of some steam!!!

Always liked this part of the Art of War:

In advancement, be as swift as the wind
In slow marches, be as majestic as the woods
In aggression, be as fierce as the flames
In stillness, be as firm as the rocks

The english translation isn't really nice, but the chinese one is:

在战争中，
故其疾如風,
其徐如林,
侵掠如火,
不動如山。

I can't wait for the chalet!!(: I think, hope and believe it will be loads of fun(:

However, i still need to complete my homework!!!!!

Homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework, homework.

God, i hate this word so much now. Who in the world coined this word? If the word homework didnt exist, we could all well be saying this now: "*&^@, i have so much ___ , i dont know how to complete all the ___, can someone please save me from the pile of ___?" If it was like this, we could all well say we dont know what ___ is, so we can don't do!

Then, if teachers ask for homework, this is what we can reply.

Teacher: "Hey, where's your ___?"
Student: "What's ___?"
Teacher: "___ is ___!!! So where is your ___?"
Student: "I stil don't know what's ___!!!"
Teacher: "___ is...___is...ahhhh, forget it, i give up."
And we can all skip doing homework!!!

Though on a brighter note, i managed to complete GP and bio today. Great job wilgene .

Tmr will be a hectic day, gotta sleep early (2300hour, not really that early anymore), ciaos~

Reverie: Cirque on ice

2009-12-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

The venue? Stadium waterfront. One word describes the entire performance: abstract. The entire performance was very very abstract as a matter of fact, for i couldnt link the different performances together, and their makeup was super weird. I left during the intermission and did not come back, went window shopping at kallang leisure park instead. However, on the bright side, their ice-skating was AWESOME, so good that i have the urge to put on ice-skates again!!(: Also, the performers had really really really great figures haha, and were quite lean, guess thats the result of hard work and training that enabled them to do all the crazy crazy stunts that they performed on the ice today. Absolutely mind-boggling.

My sister went crazy today at my cousin's first month celebrations. The JAK(Joeffrey, Ashton, Krystal) always go crazy when they come together. It was really un-entertaining there, but the food was quite good, with a pretty nice buffet spread. I was watching the SEA games to idle my time away, and i realise how bad singapore badminton was. How the mighty have fallen, Ronald susilo, former singapore no. 1 badminton player, who beat china's world number one lin dan at the 2004 athens olympics, and bao chunlai, china's number 3 singles player, to clinch the 2003 japan open title, lost convincingly in a singles match to some unknown dude from vietnam 21-14, 21-16. It was lucky they won yesterday, today, they will have no chance against malaysia. R.I.P.

Just left with a little bit for bio hmwk!!! Jia you, gotta complete it by tmr. ITS A MUST.

UCreateChange Prize Presentation(:

2009-12-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

Me and travis went to NTUC building to receive our certificates of participation in the NTUC building auditorium. We had to sit in the whole programme listening to the top 5 finalists speak. After hearing them present their case on their project idea, i realised that our "The Hungry Bin" could have made it very much to the top 5, IF and only IF we had put in more effort into designing and presenting our project. All the "if"s...if we had put in more effort, we could very well be on a trip to berlin, germany!!!! Arhhhhh!!! Most of the ideas were ABSURD. LOL, one of them even had the idea of virtual cloning. When i saw their presentation, the first person that came to my mind was: rodney and his mind uploading stuff. Very science-fiction-ish haha. God, i wanted to see how the group who came up witht the particle cannon idea would work out their presentation and build a prototype!!! HAHAHA, the thought of it is hilarious:D

I am an IT-nut, tried to change to a more complicated blog skin, but gave up half-way. I dont know how to edit the html....hahaha

Gonna go see cirque on ice tmr!!! HAHA i dont know whats that but i am still excited to go LOL.

Eat Eat Eat!!(:

2009-12-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

Had a big and hearty meal today!

5 bowls of ramen
2 plates of terriyaki chicken
3 or 4 plates of "duck" sushi (must try!)
1 plate of don't-know-what-greenish-pork floss sushi
countless of blackcurrent juice
and lots more....

think i broke even right? haha

Here's all i am able to say with my lousy internet connection:

2009-12-07T04:59:00.000-08:00

MIO SUCKS

"Super" man

2009-12-05T07:29:00.000-08:00

I am super tired, super hungry and i got a super huge blister on my left foot.

Limping here and there for now...sooo handicapped.

Badminton camp was really really fun though, even though it was the cause of my blister. Never had i experienced this kinda training before, seems so much like the sports-school kinda training. Ohhh...how i wished i got into sports school last time...haha.

Suddenly i love badminton so much. Gonna play badminton for 5 days in a stretch, and i just finished a third day in a row of badminton. 2 more days to go(: I wanna play and play and play. Of course, my racket strings will continue breaking no doubt.

But then again...what will happen to my studies?????): I havent started anything yet.......):):

Tmr Tmr!!(:

2009-12-02T02:59:00.000-08:00

Training camp starts tmr!:) I am psyched but i think tmr i will tell a different story lol.

My sister is so hilarious haha. Just a small cut on her hand (less than 1mm) and she says her hands are handicapped, so my mom has to feed her lol. Talk about princess-treatment.

Did a bit of work today, and played less computer. Good start, but not good effort.

Don't want school to reopen...i am sooo not ready yet:(

Totally neglected

2009-12-01T07:20:00.001-08:00

Long time since i updated, been distracted by this new game i bought from the IT fair. Okay, maybe not distracted, ADDICTED. i need to stop whatever i am doing and GET DOWN TO WORK. Never even started a single holiday homework at all:( i am so screwed.

Been badminton-ing quite a bit lately, and working out to get my body in shape for thursday and friday's badminton camp.

3rd december

Time Details
0745-0800 Meeting up time
0800-0845 Travelling to Bukit Gombak sports hall
0845-0900 Warming up
0900-1200 Training
1200-l300 Lunch
1300-1300 Free and easy time
1330-1345 Travel back to sports hall
1345-1400 Rest time
1400-1415 Warmup
1415-1800 Training
1800 onwards Dinner

4th december

Time Details
0745-0800 Meething up time
0800-0845 Cleaning up of hall and setting up of courts
0845-0900 Warm up
0900-1100 Training
1100-1115 Clearing up of hall
1115-1200 Lunch
1200-1300 Free and easy time
1300-1345 Cleaning up of hall and setting up of courts
1345-1400 Warm up
1400-1700 Friendly with GVSS
1700-1900 Video Analysis and Dinner
1900-2200 Friendly with RP

2 trainings on thursday, and 1 training + 2 friendly games on friday?? sounds pretty much scary to me. All in 2 days work.

Broke my 8th racket string this month yesterday. CRAPPPP:(

On hindsight, the visit to Travis's house was A MEMORY WORTH KEEPING(: It was as bright as the sun in the day with bright yellow finishing, and its a whopping 4 STOREYS HIGH!!! Omg, its sooo cool! They have an open air area that has a really really really nice view, and you can definitely watch the stars there. I want a house like that (but bigger in size, its a little too cramp)!!! Oh yeah, pictionary was splendid too(: Though, i realised i kinda suck at it haha. Me and peiyi got owned by cassandra and weiting the first time round cos i couldnt draw that well, or that me and peiyi cant understand each other's drawings hahaha. Gender differences = different interpretations i guess hahaha. The other guys (travis, sj, cy and cleon) were busy playing DOTA. LOL after so long, i still find DOTA not worth playing. Though the day was extremely fufilling, there was one regret. I should have went home early...and not stay till so late, cos i pissed my parents off again). Cassandra on the other hand, just walked off when she wanted to, imba.

I hate my happy-go-lucky attitude towards studying!!! i want to score well, and i want to play badminton well, but i guess i cant find the drive to study as hard as i play badminton...DAMN, what will happen to my 'A's next year!? God help me...i need an everlasting source of motivation.

Can't wait to go back to Hospice. Interesting experience voluteering there with justin, weiting and cassandra(:

Resolution for tmr:
Start work, start work, start work. No playing computer anymore. Get my handphone back in order ( spent another 10 dollars in a week). Get my rackets restrung.

Bring on tmr, i had a great day today!(:

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2009-11-26T02:16:00.001-08:00

I caught a cold...): Been feeling terrible for 2 days alrdy...

My allowance is crumbling to dust...cos i am eating a lot lately. An average of 6-7 dollars per meal. So how come i never gain weight??

I broke like 7 racket strings alrdy this month...so there goes my pay): Screwed...how am I gonna save now??

Been loving this past week(: Taking each day by each day does make a person feel happy, after all, there are so many accidents nowadays that made me feel how important life is. God bless everyone(:

ciaos~

Biggest blunder in my life!):

2009-11-22T06:25:00.000-08:00

I actually went to order a feast before i even looked at how much money i had. LOL, when i found out, it was too late, the feast was ordered, and so, the lady boss started hurling abuse at me, and shouting. Never felt so awkward and embarrassed in my life. Oh well, china ppl will be china ppl, get the feeling that they are desperate for money lol. Lucky the boss was more forgiving, allowed me to eat first, pay later. Still, i was really really emo thinking about it for a while lol.

Beginning to feel the start of sleep overdrive alrdy. Sleepiness is beginning to set in after superhuman effort in sports the past week. Now, its gonna be superhuman effort in sleep. I think i may be the next Rip Van Winkle lols.

(Unofficial) Last day of school tmr!!! Finally, JC1 is coming to an end(: Reflecting, it had been a good year, filled with loads of drama, happiness and tears, excitement and disappointment. I think i will be looking forward to JC2, but most importantly, 25/09 in the year 2010!(:

Spent 10 dollars worth of sms in 5 days. Crazy huh?

Things starting to slow down at last...

2009-11-21T06:14:00.000-08:00

So many things had been going on for the past week, i have no time to breathe, at all. Badminton in the morn, Lectures after that, Tennis at night, this was the norm. Then add in SL, CCA and more, and i am wiped out. Though, i am totally having fun doing all these. I am enjoying every single minute and second of it(:

Its the weekends again, and i can finally take a break. Whew. Slept from 11pm to 1145am today. Crazy huh?

Anime Festival Asia '09 is for the birds. A waste of time. Hated it. Everything is soooo expensive, and it doesnt showcase my favourite anime: Prince of Tennis): Okay, maybe its just me, a biased opinion. However, i will stand my ground that it sucks. So yay....12 dollars gone to waste 3 hours of my life. Worth it huh?

Time and tide waits for no one

2009-11-18T01:57:00.000-08:00

SL rocked! Thanks so much to travis, mavis, hannah, lina etc. for making it happen(: I love talking to old people a lot i realised, and i gained so so much from it. Would never forget this day: the time i spent with 25/09 and the old folks there. May god bless them(:

Though, i am actually wishing for time to stay still, to savour the moments, these few weeks after promos was really memorable. To think that time would zoom past us next year, and i feel empty, sad. Memories of AJC would be completely filled with the class, for the only thing that keeps AJC life interesting is only them. Daryl, Travis, Justin, CY, Alvin, MPH etc., lots of personalities jumbled together in a class (add in Darryl from 14/09 too), and somehow, they meld together so well.

I am MIC: Mad about sports, Insane about food, Crazy about sleep. And i love my life(:

Badminton in the day, Tennis at night: Bring on the overdrive man. ;)

Well worth the time(:

2009-11-16T04:47:00.000-08:00

I actually thought that today's school was a complete waste of time after the talk by Teo Yew Chye (lol the ex-vs boy), all his story about his brother, annabel chong, himself etcetc. WERE SO BORING!!! At least i had entertainment in justin and cleon hahaha.

Then, i was proven wrong. The street performers was NICE~ Especially CHIKI!!(: His robot dance was the coolest thing i had ever seen, and the crystal ball thing was TOTALLY wicked!! On top of that, he's JAPANESE(:(: Yay Yay, had a totally enjoyable time today, hope that tmr would be better. (:

On hindsight, i feel empty amidst all the happiness, and tired too. LOL

ciaos, lets all look forward to tmr!~~

Last day of school is tmr(:

2009-11-15T08:01:00.001-08:00

I am so happy, so tired, and so excited all at the same time! Been a wild and crazy week, but i enjoyed it!(:

Gotta put my BIG plans into action real soon. I can't afford to slacken alrdy. Full steam ahead!

Relocation. Preparation.

2009-11-13T05:59:00.000-08:00

Relocated my study headquarters today!(: Yeah, now i have a room all to myself to study! Packed my bedroom, the dining table and cleaned up tooo, ahhh, i feel great today!(:

I thought that the alpha biodiesel trip was really very very nice. Its an interesting thought that we can make fuel right out of the lab. Hmmm...maybe next year's AJ innovation challenge we have a car race that runs on biodiesel in conjuction with F1 race singapore. COOOL!

My handphone has no more money): oh well, i'll just be unable to reply anyone for now...-.-

Most hilarious things ever!!! haha these are from americans ppl!(:

2009-11-11T04:58:00.000-08:00

Every year, English teachers from across the country can submit their collections of actual analogies and metaphors found in high school essays.

These excerpts are published each year to the amusement of teachers across the country. Here are last year's winners.....

1. Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had its two sides gently compressed by a Thigh Master.

2. His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free.

3. He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from experience, like a guy who went blind because he looked at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it.

4. She grew on him like she was a colony of E. Coli, and he was
room-temperature Canadian beef.

5. She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.

6. Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.

7. He was as tall as a six-foot, three-inch tree.

8. The revelation that his marriage of 30 years had disintegrated because of his wife's infidelity came as a rude shock, like a surcharge at a formerly surcharge-free ATM machine.

9. The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't.

10. McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.

11. From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p. M. Instead of 7:30.

12. Her hair glistened in the rain like a nose hair after a sneeze.

13. The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.

14. Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p. M. Traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 P.M. At a speed of 35 mph.

15. They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth.

16. John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.

17. He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant, and she was the East River.

18. Even in his last years, Granddad had a mind like a steel trap, only one that had been left out so long, it had rusted shut.

19. Shots rang out, as shots are wont to do.

20. The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work.

21. The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.

22. He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame, maybe from stepping on a land mine or something.

23. The ballerina rose gracefully en Pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.

24. It was an American tradition, like fathers chasing kids around with power tools.

25. He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up.

Overdrive

2009-11-08T06:19:00.000-08:00

I am crazy. I have been playing sports like mad for the past 3 days. Can't get enough of tennis, badminton and ironically, running. Did not go running today though, need to recover from the run on friday. However, i played badminton from 1 to 5 today, and entered the "state of self-realisation" (from prince of tennis) haha, i felt that i could go on and on and on and on. After that, i was really tired, so i went to sleep for a while after dinner. However, the lure of tennis once again proved to great for me, so i played tennis downstairs soon after, from 8 to 10. I went into overdrive for the last 3 days, and it doesnt look like its going to slow down. Maybe its just as well. I love sports to the core. Its in my blood, i guess.

I am blessed. I am thoroughly being entertained these few days, so much so that i feel happier again, like the start of the year. Though, i must get some sleep, been sleeping quite little these few days although i am exhausted. Sometimes i dont even know how i am standing.

OP rehearsal at hannah's tmr! Hope for it to be fun again, seems so sian usually. I am happy that i managed to experience such a fufilling 3 days. HAPPY~~(:

Untitled.

2009-11-07T07:41:00.000-08:00

Today's the day of the "X"s.

Its X-tremely X-hilarating, X-hausting. My love for tennis is going to overdrive right now: Played tennis after OP with Weijie, Vikiniash and Darryl (1409). Got a little sun burn, got even MORE exhausted (barely rested since yesterday's 7 km run), but it was all worth it. I just realised this, but sports is can effectively numb you emotionally, and is a great great stress buster, not that i need it anymore.

"dont think you are so smug, you are not that great after all."

Whole range of programs lined up after OP on tuesday. PW is once again, a waste of my time. I hope though, that i would complete PW with at least a good memory to keep...keep hoping.

I am a pig today. After tennis, i went with Vikniash and Darryl (1409) to YCK hawker centre to eat. I ate 1 bowl of fish ball mee and 1 plate of nasi lemak. Then, i went home and ate a big bowl of porridge, before heading off to Courts Megastore's Subway in Tampines for a foot long sub, all in the span of 2 hours. I can't believe myself. PIG.

Run, run, run away

2009-11-06T02:12:00.000-08:00

These two days were absolutely an adventure, and my life seems so colourful for now(:

Yesterday:
First, we went to watch "coraline". The movie was okay...but not something that i would enjoy though, cos the graphics werent exactly that spectacular, and the storyline was gloomy right from the start. Thereafter, we went to eat at some BBQ korean restaurant. 7 of us ordered their "Jerk BBQ Chicken", LOL thought i was really a jerk for ordering it, it wasnt that filling. Maybe i should have ordered what CY ordered...haha

Last on the programme, or so i thought, was watching "poker king"! HAHA it was a typical chinese made show, but it was still REALLY REALLY hilarious!:D It was filled with loads of real funny scenes, and the choice of actors and actresses were splendid, though i thought that louis koo was really weird acting like a good kid. 1 qn: why do i get the impression that Jack (louis khoo) is similar to me? hmmmm...

After the movie, thats when excitement went into overdrive. We were almost going to miss the last train! So, we ran to the mrt station. Adrenaline filled night, very cool(: Ahhh...it feels really great, havent felt like this for quite a while now. It was entertaining too, how travis, justin and cy were making fun of the girls, hannah especially, though i do feel sorry that she must always fend for herself...haha.

Today!:
I RAN FROM HOME (nearest mrt: bartley) TO PARKWAY PARADE (nearest mrt bedok)!!!(: My training from hell officially starts today, and this is just the tip of the iceberg. From here on out, running shall be my main mode of transport. Then, i ate lunch there with my bro and mom, and bought a new tennis racket. It matches my new racket bag really well (green and black), and it is cheap too (50 dollars!), for a racket which is fully casted. Everyday feels like an adventure, and i feel a lot happier alrdy(:

"Everytime at 12 o clock, you must think of me once"
I thought that the female lead was quite beautiful, and i thought that this line was particularly nice. Though its a show, and shows will always be shows, its still kinda nice.

I cant believe this, my sister is so emotional. She cried while watching Tarzan!!!! OMG i cant believe this.....LOL. Pampered kid.

Tmr theres pw op...again. Lets just get this over with shall we?

ciaos~

This is it. Showtimes approaching.

2009-11-03T04:54:00.001-08:00

PW's OP is really really mundane. Boring. Tiring. Exhausting. Shouldnt have slept at 12 last night. Its your loss, really, Wilgene.

"This is it" totally rocked. Except the starting few songs, of which MJ was basically muttering gibberish (not even sure if you can consider them songs), and ESPECIALLY the Crotch-grabbing dance moves (not even sure if you can consider it a dance move) which was totally prevalent throughout the whole movie, it totally rocked. Loved the last few songs and their really really catchy beat. Rescued me from my doldrums. No regrets at all(:

Shall sleep early today to compensate for time used on converting the video yesterday. Great that it turned out well after all.

Perceptions dont change over time, they change over people - (i dont even know what i am talking about LOL)

ciaos~~(:

I couldnt really care less!

2009-11-02T03:32:00.000-08:00

Now's not the time to be pointing fingers because its too late. I shall trust you one last time, just one last time, for I know that it is all for the greater good. But with competition breathing down our necks, failure is not an option.

Screwed chinese today, I aim to get a B now, can't expect much more anyways...crap crap crap.

I wish so much for PW to end now, to get OP over and done with, and get the 'A's that all of us promised to get.

I find comfort in familiarity, but everything feels so foreign now...

Life isnt about rainbows and flowers...

2009-11-01T06:35:00.001-08:00

But more of suspicion, lies and deceit. Why can't life be like an open book? Where has all the trust gone to?

Keep believing that all these are not true, don't stop.

Halloween...BOO

2009-10-31T06:11:00.000-07:00

Wanted to study for chinese today but ended up lazing around the whole day. HA HA HA, so little effort and you expect good results? Dream on wilgene.

OH MAN...i want my 50,000 dollars! haha got another "marina bay" again today at macdonalds...just need a "sentosa cove"! ):

Chinese is on monday and i am not prepared.................

PW is next next tuesday and i am not prepared...............

i caught the laziness bug. Damn.

Life now is as colourful as AJ's uniform...grey.

2009-10-29T03:20:00.001-07:00

Schools really boring now. B O R I N G. Either that or something is sucking the life out of me.

And its Wednesday all over again...

2009-10-27T03:03:00.000-07:00

Which means, its CCA day again. Rest in peace Wilgene, after tmr you really will need to. PW rehearsal today was a disaster, great that we did not present today, or it would be a wasted chance. Lucky. Animations and me are just not meant to be, i cant coordinate speech and get the animations right...

Miss leong gave us a talk today. No matter how bad i think she is, i thought that it was still insightful nonetheless. Just one more year left. One year later from today, the A levels would be close upon me. How prepared would i be then? Did i make use of the exams well enough? Did i fufill the promises that i made to myself? Thoughts, questions, uncertainty, paranoia...

What should i do?

There is only one answer.

'When the impossible is removed, all that remains, however improbable, must be the truth'

Bam.

2009-10-26T06:30:00.000-07:00

Been feeling sian of late, so slacked a little on the blogging. HAHA lazy me. Sleep seems to be my best pal nowadays, the bed looks soooo inviting. Gonna start loads of plans i have in mind soon. I am only but a thinker and a planner, not much of a mover and a shaker, but its time to put plans into action, soon. There's still pw and chinese left. After that, i will begin. I CAN'T FIND MY I&R NOTES!!!! I need a kind soul to help me out with this one):

Why do i get the strange feeling i will retake chinese next year? okay fine, i am prepared to retake chinese next year, cos theres not way i can jump from an E to an A. Impossible. Oh well, i have come to terms with it, chinese IS quite fun haha.

Signed up for OGL today(: Hope i get inside, it'll be sooooo fun haha.

I wanna go genting, i wanna go genting, i wanna go genting. My sister made it seem so nice!

Ah, i wanted to take a H3, but i cant now. Oh well...it may be fate's way of saying i cant cope. Good anyway, i have more time for other stuff, namely chinese next year.

Alright, sleeps calling for me yet again. Nights blog.

ciaos~

DIED.

2009-10-22T05:13:00.000-07:00

10 minutes into yesterday's badminton training and i died. literally. i was panting so hard like never before. my legs were tired, my hands were heavy. i am unfit. period. gotta thank myself for eating and sleeping and not running in the run towards promos. thanks wilgene, you just killed yourself. need to start to run soon, real soon, if not next wednesday i will not just die, but get massacred, roasted, cooked etc etc repeatedly for 3.5 hours.

quite happy with my results alrdy. i decided not to try and jump so much in grades, and take things step by step; try to be humble and not be complacent, arrogant; to study smart first, hard later. Step by step for the rest of the subjects. Chiong for chinese, pw now. GO GO GO.

tmr has the chinese mock exam. i am going to write continuous again, i dont care. i dont believe that i would 离题 a third time. NO WAY, NO HOW.

AHHHHHHH! needed a shoutout. feels better now. screwed promos. gotta work even harder now.

Feeling high on cloud nine

2009-10-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

This is me? Thanks daryl, thanks a lot, but Tan Yeong Tat Wilgene is not equals to Tan Yeong Tarts.

YEAH, i love myself again ( i am not a narcissist), great job wilgene, for actually being promoted(: Congrats to justin and cleon too, for staying on as a proud member of 25/09, our classmate, our friend(: Total jubilation for 25/09 too! We all did great. Period. Entering the next phase of our lives, we must all buck up, and get surrounded by skyscrapers of books.

Just mug it.-Nike
Mugging is nothing.-Adidas
I'm muggin' it.-Macdonalds
Probably the best muggers in the world.-Heineken
The mugger's choice.-Pilot Pen

I shall support MU (mugger's united). GO GO GO!(:(:(:

Tmr is the OP workshop. I am screwed. My speech hit 8 minutes now): Good game.

Me Myself and I: Jerk

2009-10-14T23:11:00.000-07:00

I realize i don't hate AJ at all, its not bad; Nor do i hate my class, they are the coolest bunch of people i am ever blessed to be with; I hate myself, and what i am becoming: a real jerk, stepping on other people's toes. Today, i feel really really bad. Being spontaneous isn't my thing, look where it landed me, stepping on Cassandra's, Mavis's, Alvin's, Gabriel's and Cleon's toes by pulling out the plug from the power socket. It was something i would not have done if i actually thought through the consequences. But i didn't, and so, remarks that felt like arrows piercing through me were made, and this feeling of remorse sucks big time. I hate myself for what i did.

I don't know who i am right now, i am just going to school as an empty shell, to study and do nothing but study. Having many many friends? That's a thing of the past. I am no longer in the power to change anything, all i can do is move forward without turning back. I am so hoping that JC life would past me fast, so i have a chance to forget what i have done. I look at the picture of our OG during orientation. Is that me in there? I look real happy then, what am i now? Regretful. There are chances that once pass, can no longer be returned. No use for regrets i tell myself, but i still do feel the sourness lingering behind. Its a real choking feeling, a feeling that i did not want to have. Gasping for air, i can only move forward. I can only move forward...

Okay, its now me against the world. Can't wait for PW to end. Its killing me.

Totally crazy day

2009-10-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

Sandcastles was the highlight for the first half of the day. Sorta like deja vu, because we did sandcasltes for ABCamp as well as VELOCI-T. It was getting a little repetitive hearing what the lady had to say, but the main point was that it was my class that i was building sandcastles with, not the activity itself. Really should commend our class leaders, they really pulled us all tgt. 25/09 rocks, and we will prove it in actions, not just words. Results for promos are coming out soon, and i think that it is safe to say that our class would 100% promote, as well as do well, think that they are just that good.

The transition between the first and second half of the day was spent lunching at macdonalds with rodney and benedict. We were walking from ECP to the VS bus stop, and rodney and benedict spent quite a while trying to help hannah find her route home. The shortest route was just a straight bus to bishan interchange with 55, and they took so long haha. I guess hannah will be hannah.

Kinda inhaled my macdonalds fillet-o-fish meal and went to POP to buy krystal's birthday gift. Searched for a really long time because my budget was about 8 dollars. I know, i am really stingy a brother. Knowing how to stretch a dollar is more fun than buying lots of stuff with tons of cash. Sorry bout that peiyi. Bought a multiplication table and 4 colouring books for krystal, and rushed to ECP again.

Thats when the day started. Rented a pair of skates with Gabriel and tried rollerskating for the first time. I'd say i did okay, managed to do a stop-turn today. Really happy with my accomplishment(: Luckily i wasnt the only newbie around. Cass, Gab, Mavis, Kenneth and Vikniash were thankfully around the same level as me: on earth. Justin and CY were out of this world. They can skate really well. Impressed~

I think i was really too tired after all these. Took a bus home with Travis, Justin, CY and Cassandra, but i missed my stop because i forgot to press the bell. Becoming really blur):

The best thing for today: Minor Sunburn on the face only(: Usually, i would equivalent to a red lobster! Thank god for my sunscreen(:

PW PW PW. Gotta get it done. Think the world should be more optimistic.

You are not alone- Michael Jackson

2009-10-13T06:32:00.000-07:00

Another day has gone, I'm still all alone
How could this be you're not here with me
You never said goodbye, someone tell me why
Did you have to go and leave my world so cold?

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone, for I am here with you
Though you're far away, I am here to stay
But you are not alone, for I am here with you
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone, why, 'lone

Just the other night, I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come and hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers, your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone, for I am here with you
Though you're far away, I am here to stay
But you are not alone, for I am here with you
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Oh whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And I, and girl you know that I'll be there, I'll be there

You are not alone, for I am here with you
Though you're far away, I am here to stay
You are not alone, for I am here with you
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart

You are not alone, for I am here with you
(You are not alone)
(I am here with you)
Though you're far away, I am here to stay
(Though you're far away)
(You and me)
For you are not alone, for I am here with you
(You are always in my heart)
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart

this song is NICE~MJ's songs totally rocks(:

I am who I am

2009-10-13T03:03:00.000-07:00

Ironically, I am a study-o-holic; a sports, japanese, sleep, nature, comics, movies, non-bespectacled, kinda slack study-o-holic.

My JC life is laid out with tons of potential. Justin says life is based on the law of averages. However, just this time, fate may be at play. Probably just this once, fate exists, instead of the law of averages. Even though i did not expect myself to be in my position now, i am in it now. I am going to fufill it. Thats why i am going to study. No more distractions, focus.

I am who I am. Sorry to disappoint.

"If you walk like a champion and talk like a champion, then it is nearly impossible for you not to be a champion." John Di Lemme, some guy.

Can i be one? I certainly hope so. On to pw. I pray for my group's success. Jia you everyone(:

Kaze no lalala

2009-10-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

First time trying to upload a video!

Totally like this song. (:

School begins tmr after a long weekend

2009-10-11T04:06:00.000-07:00

The theme for this long weekend was "Sleep". Snoozed. Slept. Rested. Ready. Bring it on, whatever the week has to offer.

"From nobody to upstart. From upstart to contender. From contender to winner. From winner to champion. From champion to dynasty." Pat Riley, NBA head coach of Miami Heat

Where do i stand?

Friendship, the boat that never sinks(:

2009-10-10T08:06:00.000-07:00

When your sad and depressed,I will be here to put a smile on your face.

When your angry and frustrated,I will be here to calm you down.

When your hurt and in tears,I will be here to wipe them away and mend the pain.

When your lonely and have no one, I will be here to comfort you.

When your feeling unloved and unwanted,I will be here to tell you how very important you are.

When your having a bad day and need to lash out,I will be here to let you let off steam, you can yell at me.

When there is something on your mind that you need to say,I will be here to listen and understand.

When your lost in confusion,I will be here to help you figure things out.

When you feel like your going crazy,I will be here to bring you back to sanity.

When you are so overwhelmed and need to get away,I will be here with open arms so we can runaway together.

When your scared and frightened,I will be here to protect you and make you feel safe.

When you are full of worries,I will be here to worry with you.

This is my promise for my friends(:

Sleeping like a log

2009-10-10T01:14:00.000-07:00

Was talking to ismah, and he said that he didnt sleep cos he was in post-promos mood. I am the exact opposite lol, been sleeping for at least 12 hours a day after the promos. Today i slept 13 hours LOL. Continuing to break more records...and becoming a sleepy head. Though, i feel like i am repaying much of the "sleep debt" i had been owing since god-knows-when, and i do feel better(:

Sleep Sleep Sleep Sleep Sleep~

So glad promos are over.

Packed my table-s(:

2009-10-09T18:00:00.001-07:00

Call me pac-man, i woke up today from another dream that set me thinking, haha i am thinking about loads of stuff lately, and i made a resolution when i woke up: Pack my table-s. And so i did, packed and packed for 2 whole hours, from 7-9. Whew. But finally its done, and everything looks so neat and tidy again(: Guess this is what they call "先苦后甜"(:

Once again, YAY that promos are over!(:

Couch potato

2009-10-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

Slept the whole day off today. Woke up at around 7 plus because what i was dreaming of set me thinking about loads of stuff. And so, i woke up and wrote my previous blog post, and went on to watch major league baseball off the internet. Good game between LA Dodgers and St. Louis Cardinals. Too bad the San Fransisco Giants werent playing today, but still, the Cardinals @ Dodgers game was good, with the Dodgers coming from behind to get a win at their home field.

Then i felt tired at last, so i went to sleep, and sleep, and sleep, and sleep. Woke up a few times, and went back to sleep soon after. I think i am becoming a sleepy head, doing nothing but sleep. Because of this, what i resolved to do was only partially completed. I went to do a little chinups at the hilltop before heading back home after breakfast. Thats all. Crap.

My parents dragged me to the new City Square Mall at the Mustafa Centre area there, and it was typical "new shopping centre" experience. Lotsa stores still not opened, kinda empty etc etc.

I have no plans, no plans...tmr's gonna be another boring, sleeping day again...oh well, i need sleep anyways, considering how stressed i was during promos period. I can finally let loose and sleep without being worried about studies anymore(:

thats if i look on the bright side...

Promos Are Over!

2009-10-08T16:34:00.000-07:00

Yay Yay Yay! Promos are really over. I could feel a load of my chest after the chinese teacher told us that we could go. I actually let off a huge sigh of relief and screamed along with the rest of the people in the hall as the went out. Along the long walk from school to AMK hub, the boys were totally going crazy, as in Crazy Crazy. Justin was totally jumping about here and there, CY and Travis were assaulting one another. HAHA what a sight to behold. A good long walk was exactly what we needed after promos, to let off a ton of steam. Whew. Felt loads better.

Cloudy with a chance of meatballs was HILARIOUS, but it totally stole my appetite away, didnt feel like eating the whole day because of that show and exams. Who was the one who suggested that the movie would make us hungry as we watch it?? It made me sick of food! Then again, the characters really resemble our class. Travis is really like Flint, the main character, cos of his crazy antics and constant adrenaline rush. CY looks a lot like Brad, Vicks looks LOADS like the policeman. It was really funny to see CY and the rest argue about who was who from the movie, a little childish, but then again, role playing and imagination is always interesting. Oh yeah, and Cleon, the butter that dropped on the pancakes DID NOT have the macdonalds symbol on!

AJ may be fun after all. This class of mine is a living soap opera. People of different personalities coming together, and somehow it just fits in nicely, like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, without any one of them, the picture would not be complete Weiting, Belinda, Cassandra, Peiyi, Lina, Mavis, Yvette, Hannah, Benedict, Chung Yeow, Cleon, Daryl, Weijie, Rodney, Vikniash, Donovan, Yifeng, Travis, Justin, Shi Jie, Tseung Jun, Alvin, Gabriel, Me(: 25/09 rocks.

Gotta train up and get myself in shape for training. Badminton is going to start soon, and i'll die in training if i dont go do something about it. Dont think i gained weight during the promos period, and i dont think i will, no matter how much i eat, lol. But i do know i have less stamina, partly cos of promos and partly cos i did not run due to athletes foot. Gotta mug chinese too, chinese 'A's is not far away, so it is a must, lest i want to do badly. PW is also on its way, OP is fast approaching, gotta do the slides. I got to pack my table-S too, the one in my room and the dining table are sprawled with my books and notes. MESSY. Its such a chore, i dont want to do it, i dont want to do it....can i pay someone to pack it for me?? Anyone?

Promos are over, let loose.

Human belief, like any natural occurences, elude the barrier of systems. Never stop believing that anything is possible, after all, impossible is I M Possible. Have faith.

Tmr tmr tmr

2009-10-04T05:18:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, the Race starts. the Battle starts. the Ascent starts. Promos starts. Its exhilarating and yet scary at the same time. I want to do well i want to do well i want to do well!!!

Jia you!!!!

Biology marathon............

2009-10-03T01:49:00.000-07:00

Its exhausting!!!!! With the end in sight, a voice in me asked: "is it worth it?"

Yeah, is it really worth it? To spend so long to study and study and study?

Why am i asking this qn? The answer is simple. To get to harvard. To be able to look at the world from its peak for once. To prove something. Thats why i am studying so hard, so hard, so hard...

Jia you, its the very last part. Imagine when you actually manage to reap the rewards of your efforts. The exhilaration, the excitement, the ecstasy. You wont get that if you dont work hard now. So go. Study. Study like never before. Break out. Break through.

On your bid to be great. Lets go wilgene.

Krystal Tan Yeong Ting(:

2009-10-02T08:28:00.000-07:00

Todays blog post is dedicated to little krystal, who will be turning 5 in 13 days time. Counting down...(:

Little Kris posing in front of my humble birthday cake on my bday(:

Potential Camera-lover alert! Krystal holding camera. Peiyi beware.:D

Krystal drew this heart for me today! It touched my heart(:

And i should be studying seriously. I am at my limit now. Need to break through to scale even greater heights.

Heads over heels in love

2009-10-01T06:05:00.000-07:00

Ludwig van Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata. Cool name, beautiful music. Simply Breathtaking.

The world of classical music is in a league of its own, a time of its own, a place of its own. It is untainted by the pop culture that so frequently cause music now to enter the boundary of noise. The artistic capabilities displayed by those grandmasters: Ludwig van Beethoven, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Federic Chopin, Peter Ilyich Tchaikovsky, Johann Sebestian Bach etc. are simply marvelous, to the extent that it cannot be portrayed by words. It transcends time and space, their works of the 17th century, and stood the test of time. People still adore and play these timeless masterpieces. Just listening to it already puts you in an alternate time and space.

Classical Music = Beautiful.

It helps me concentrate. Justin told me that classical music is better than tempo aids (baroque) in memory. I quite agree, because i tried listening to baroque yesterday and it wasnt really to my liking. It keeps me focused on my eventual goal and rids me of distractions, so i'd say it does even more than memory aids. Classical is still the best(:

Crap i am falling sick...:(

2009-09-30T07:40:00.000-07:00

Promos is edging closer...it caused:
My blogging frequency to decline (its become very erratic)

My sleeping patterns to become weird (slept for 11 hours yesterday)

and me to fall ill, or feel that i am falling ill. I am perfectly fine, but i feel very uneasy of some sort...must be cause of promos.

Tried to keep my BIG distraction out of my mind. Out of sight, out of mind. Out of sight Out of mind Out of sight Out of mind...

Me travis and justin went to eat KFC today, and went to popular to buy supplies for battle on monday. really great company those two...hilarious to hear them talk about their zhong hua life haha. Never saw a gang fight in my life, so it was really enriching to hear them talk about it.

the quotes at the back of the paper that ms cheng gave to us b4 our promos really rocks!

'preseverance is not a long race, its just many short races one after another'

cool right?

Edging closer to exams

2009-09-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

Think that mr poh is going to have a really really tough time reading my organisation and control of prok and euk genome. Apparently, it turned out too long, so the words are as fine as ants. Seriously. I am happy though, managed to do the entire mindmap out of my own memory(: Just hope that i would be able to do the papers with greater or equal ease. I want to get into bio olympiad. period. i want to get into h3 econs. period. i want to get 13 AUs to take h3 chem too, though its just a wish for now, my math CMI, so i dont suppose moe would allow me to tak 13 AUs even if i did well in the rest. Gotta buck up for math!!!

Prepared for only half of the essay section of econs...loads to clarify for market structure. Think market failure is kinda covered, though i havent written any essay on it yet...

Kay, gotta be optimistic. "Watashi wa seikai no ichiban desu!" is my new catch phrase(:

Watching justin and cy is really really entertaining. They always quarrel over the most minute of things and when they quarrel, they are hilarious! And they eat a lot too. They never cease to amaze me how much they can eat. I am only a rice vat. They are rubbish bins, black holes or whatever you can call them. If you add travis into the mix, and wala(not sure if i spelt it correctly), we have an epic! Glad that i can get to see this up close and personal everytime haha, though i dont play DOTA(hate it), though i dont watch as much anime (nor hentai), though i dont play as much computer games as them, its always a joy to hang around them. FREE TV!(:

Hate runny nose. I miss the time when we dont have our "beloved" room 415 to use. Its really freezing today. BRRRRR. Belinda and i were trying so hard to gather what little warmth we gould gather by snuggling in our jackets, but for me, its definitely to no avail. I ended up with a leaky faucet for the rest of the day. DRATS.

Think that school should have an afternoon nap session like kindergarten. Everytime it hits noon to one plus, i would feel REALLY sleepy, after all, at that time, i would be having my afternoon nap from studying at home. It really affects a person's productive efficiency. How can AJ expect me to operate at the LRAC if they dont give me my afternoon nap? HAHA, i am really zou huo ru mo for studying alrdy. Promos is really different from "O"s. The thought of retaining scares a person loads. It scares me loads.

There is ONE VERY VERY BIG distraction in my life right now.

Paradox Everywhere

2009-09-26T07:53:00.000-07:00

Dreamt that i failed promos yesterday...i 'scored' 'U's for my 2 H1 subjects and 'S' for my H2 Math, and 'C' for my chem. My bio and econs scores were covered, i couldnt remember it. I remember that i was trying so hard to find my Rank Point on the results slip, but i couldnt, something was stopping me. Told my mother and dad about my dream today, and they told me that i was putting too much stress on myself and its these kinda ppl that would be driven mad. Its ironical. When i wasnt studying, they told me that i was too slack, and when i study, they tell me that i put too much stress on myself. Oh well, its okay, they are just showing concern. I think they are right though, i may be going mad studying. Felt adrenaline pumping though me throughout the day, and i was constantly thinking about the feeling when i step into the exam hall, and when i open the paper, it would be smooth sailing throughout, and when i get my results back, it would polyadenylated with 5 'A's. I want to see what the world is like from the top, and its this feeling that i may be able to do so this promos that kept me going all day.

Ironically, i do feel at times that i may fail promos too. Everytime i go to school without doing homework, and the teacher goes through the tutorial, i would not know how to do, and i become pessimistic. This is especially true for math. When i went to differential equations tutorial last week, i didnt even understand what miss cheng or my classmates were talking about. Today, i sat down and read my differential equations notes, and attempted every qn in the tutorial as well as the notes itself, and i find that i MAY be ready for almost any qn possible. That said, i just had a thought: is it even wise to go to school next monday to wednesday unless you have things to consult the teachers with? I think that it would be more effective if they just let the whole of next week be study break. Oh well, schools school, AJ's AJ, what to do what to do?

Totally into classical music now. It helps keep my concentration there and my ideas flowing(:

Gonna indulge myself in Federic Chopin, Wolfgang Armadeus Mozart, Tchaikovsky and Beethoven(:

School's a battlefield

2009-09-25T01:43:00.000-07:00

Met my neighbour when i was "limping" home yesterday with a stuffy head and flu. He told me that i looked "beaten up", and how right he was. I was suffering from punches by math, kicks by chemistry, headbutts by biology, jabs by economics, kneeings by gp, elbows by chinese, and uppercuts by teachers. Schools a pressure cooker of a battlefield.

I was beaten up, and today, i relented. I woke up with an earth-splitter of a headache, and i knew there and then, i was K.O.ed. Slept for a whole day, and when i woke up, i saw peiyi's and mr leoh's message. Frustrations frustrations frustrations!!!:( Really hope that nothing went wrong for the class...after all, today is 25/09 day! I cant join the class....FRUSTRATED:(

My headache robbed me of my drive to study for today...dont feel like studying at all...:(

sorry 25/09...i was not a good chem rep. i'll try better than my best from here on out.

Wake up call

2009-09-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

my math sucks. big time. gotta buck up.

"Long Weekend" is done

2009-09-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

2 more weeks before promos. I am really scared now. Really really scared. Lots of emotions, adrenaline rushes, exhaustion etc. What happened to the normal life i wanted? Fine. I shall accept it. I am going to be extraordinary. Promos is going to be nothing other than a mere stepping stone on my climb to the top. Its close, i can feel it. Remember Mr Low used to say that results = potential - distractions. My distractions = 0 right now, and my potential is infinite. Nothing can stop me. I am pumped.

One by One...

2009-09-19T05:26:00.001-07:00

My files are bursting.
Chem: Close
Bio: Close
Math: V. Close
Econs: Alrdy Burst
GP: Burst Long Long Time Ago
PW: Totally Busted

Each Chapter Gets Devoured By Me.
Just finished my DNA and Genomics today.
En Garde: Genetics of viruses and bacteria

Math:
Differentiation
Differential Eqns
VECTORS
Curve Sketching

Chem:
Organic Chem
Thermodynamics

Bio:
Genetics of viruses and bacteria

Econs:
Monopolistic Competition
Equity

GP:
Comprehension Short Answers

I need magic.
Magic to turn shortcomings into my strength
Magic to allow me to step into the exam hall feeling more prepared than ever
Magic to give me unparalleled concentration
Magic to make that final leap
Magic to break through
Magic to finally be able to climb to the top
To see the world from the top.
I need magic.

Long weekend in sight!

2009-09-18T03:57:00.001-07:00

I know what i want.

A friend

A friend:

A brain to pick

A shoulder to cry on

Ears to hear all

An arm to rely on

A voice to give cheer

A hand to hold

A heart that's sincere

Someone who cares

A soul you can share

A friend.

Stress-full day

2009-09-15T04:24:00.000-07:00

And i thought that the couple dance we did during orientation was the last that i will see of couple dance. And i thought that afternoon pe wont get any worse. Well, i thought wrong. We did the Cha-Cha today, and you know what that means? Couple dance yet again. Couldnt have been more stressful. Think my face was red the whole time:( And this would continue, or so i heard for the rest of the term...oh man, how can i survive this? This week: Cha-Cha, whats next? Ballroom dancing?? I hope not. Cant dance for nuts.

I have an exploded hairdo today. And nope, i am not trying to impress anyone daryl;) Its just an act based on the circumstance. Really confused now.

I hate math.

1st day of school almost killed me

2009-09-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

I officially have 2 econs files now. The previous one had burst alrdy, so a new one is absolutely necessary. I wasnt tired today, until after break, when all of a sudden, a wave of tiredness hit me, i was really tired after that, so i went home to sleep, before doing econs. Wasnt as bad as i would expect it to be, finished case study and essay(:

Got my hair cut today! my fringe is gone now, was getting a little irritating. But my parents say it still looks as long as before, hmm...

The day before tmr

2009-09-13T04:15:00.000-07:00

Rafael Nadal totally beat Fernando Gonzalez! COOL(:

Kim Clijster seems like another Justine Henin to me, she deserves to beat serena williams and win the US Open 2009(:

Gotta cut my hair soon, its getting really long. maybe tmr?

School starts again tmr...i dread school.

Lost...in singapore

2009-09-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

I went to the national library again to study with ismah. I feel its a really great place to study, love it!(: Went to banquet at Raffles Medical Hospital for lunch, as suggested by ismah, which is ironic as he is fasting! HAHA. Finished Cell Division today and the 2003 RJC chem paper. Okay for a day's work. I hate wireless@sg though, spent like half an hour trying to get connected to print the rjc chem 2004 paper, which i gave up later and decided to use the library's instead. Finally printed it, and realised that i needed to spend S$5.10 on printing in the library! Too "luxurious" a good alrdy, takes up a large proportion of my income, so my quantity demanded of it drops, drastically to zero. NO MORE PRINTING AT THE NAT LIBRARY.

After that, i showed ismah to iluma, and with that, it would have been the 5th time i stepped into iluma over the past month. I think bugis is going to be my 4th home, the first being my own home, the second: VS, the third: AJ library. Then, i went to the busstop to take 196 to my grand-aunt's house, only to realise that there was no 196! My phone was out of battery too, so i had no means of contacting anybody. Never felt so lost in my life, so unconnected with the world. Where is a saviour when you need one?? On my misconception that my grand-aunt and the rest were going to Golden Mile Complex for steamboat, i made the obvious choice: Go to golden mile itself and find a pay phone to tell my mom, who told me that i had to be punctual and reach my grand-aunt's by 5. The time was 4.50. I had to rush. Took bus 7 for two bus stops, then got off and walked to golden mile. I then found a pay phone and phoned my mom, who was really really pissed as we were not going to golden mile for steamboat but queensway instead. Lucky for me, there was bus 100 there that could take me all the way to queensway. Whew. But i had not felt so lost in singapore, so unconnected, i didnt even know what the time was. LOL.

My horoscope for today!

Quickie
No one can get a plan in place like you. Go ahead and set things up just right.

Overview
Someone is desperate for your help -- but may feel awkward asking. Use your intuition to divine who's in need and what you can do -- but check in with them before taking care of it all!

Daily Extended
In your book, there's nothing like having options, is there? It makes everything better, knowing that if plan A doesn't work out, plan B looks good and plan C is ready to go. Well, you may not need quite that many plans tonight, but it couldn't hurt to have them handy anyway. The universe has arranged a rather impromptu visit from a dear one who needs you -- and your ability to handle anything that comes your way.

Teen
Ping your closest buddies and ask their advice. You're all ears right now, and need some input to balance out the intense feelings that have been building up for a while.

Whos in need of some help?(:

Kay, on to carve out a legend;)

Waking up from a dream

2009-09-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

"I am back". its what michael jordan said when he decided to go back to the game that he truly loved and excelled in after two years in minor league baseball. today, michael jordan gets inducted into the naismith basketball hall of fame, as a truly deserving basketball player. Its time for me to say: "I am back", for promos are coming and i am totally unprepared. my brother told me a few days ago, ask yourself what you want in life, and then reflect and see if what you are doing shows that you are heading in that direction; what are your many goals in life, and which one is taking the driver's seat in your life right now. I want to go to harvard, nothings going to change that. I dont want to experience the feeling i got for O levels again. I want to see what is like to be at the top. Time to get my game on, its the last 3 minutes of the 4th quarter right now, its the 13th game of the 5th set right now, crunch time. Study study study!!!

Del potro won marin cilic today at the US open quarterfinals. he is going to meet nadal next, i hope that nadal wins, but loses to Rojer Fed in the finals:) Go nadal!(for now)

urgh, i hate not being able to wear shoes for the next two weeks. i hate athletes foot! >:(

gotta sleep now:)i hope i can create a legend.